For years I have been talking about hiring someone to come and take care of my lawn for me. I even went so far as to gather information from friends regarding who did their work for them including phone numbers. I always thought that it would happen soon yet kept putting it off because mowing the lawn gave me an excuse to be outdoors and it is such great exercise (haha).

I am not sure what the final trigger was, but yesterday I called one of the names I had been given and made arrangements for him to start this week. Once I made the call it became a simple process of showing him the lawn and discussing timeframes. We are all set so why am I still feeling hesitant about the decision?

My husband thinks my hesitancy comes from doing everything for myself all my life. I have never been good at accepting help so perhaps he is right. I wonder if it isn’t more that I have been keeping all the balls in the air for so long and don’t know how to let go of one for fear of dropping them all. I was raised to take care of myself and, somehow, this just feels wrong.

I am working to shift my perspective. This is a physically wearing task that I won’t have to do and, by hiring it out, I am able to support a local family business. I will accept this as an opportunity for personal growth as I learn to ask for and accept help. It gives me the chance to acknowledge that I don’t have to do it all because trying only wears me out. This is a ball I can happily hand off to someone else and my lawns will look better for it too.