Even as I write this I realize that no matter what I am doing these days, I am always multi-tasking. One part of my brain is always watching and listening to hear what my husband is doing to make sure he is safe. It is my alert system and the only way I can shut it down is to get out of the house and away from the situation either by taking a walk or doing yoga. It takes an activity that fully engages all of my senses for me to really let go.

The fact that I am always on alert means that anything else I add is multi-tasking. I am sitting here at my computer writing and yet I still listen for my husband moving around in the other room to know he is okay. I have laundry going so that means I am doing at least three tasks. I am thinking forward to a meeting coming on Friday, is that a fourth? Oh wait, here’s the cat, did I feed her? It is no wonder that I reach the end of the day with things still undone when I am always juggling so many at a time.

I consciously try to put everything aside when I am working with my husband. We exercise together later today and for the hour we are in that room all I will be focused on is the workout. I need to be present in that moment to make sure we are both safe, I cannot afford any distractions. If only I could remember this in all the things I do. Perhaps I could avoid cutting my fingers while preparing food, forgetting to return calls, or getting lost when driving somewhere. My mind is so busy, I need to calm it so that I can take care of the two main tasks I have, caring for my husband and safely surviving my own life.