I am having a colonoscopy tomorrow. It’s routine and will only take me away from home for a couple of hours. I scheduled it to happen while our care provider is here so my husband won’t be on his own. My son has agreed to be my transportation to and from the appointment since I am not supposed to drive myself. I have things in place for the day of the procedure, unfortunately I didn’t plan as well for the past two days of prepping, which have been pretty ugly.

My husband sees the additional challenges I am going through right now and he is really trying to be helpful. He was accepting of the low fiber diet we’ve been on for the past week and understands that he may be preparing some of his own food, simple reheats in the microwave, over the next day or two. He also gets that I need to work through much of this on my own and is letting me handle it. Which is smart on his part because he knows that the more tired and hungry I get, the grumpier I get. And I don’t get to eat any solid food for the next day and a half.

It can be difficult juggling care for me and care for him when things like this come up. I jokingly asked him if he wanted to go into respite for a few days until this was all over, and of course he didn’t. Today I am wondering if that might not have been a good idea? I love him and want to be with him, but at a time like this when my focus is split, I am not sure I am providing the best of care for either of us. Were he not here, I would probably be spending today in bed, trying to catch up on the sleep I missed last night and the sleep I know I’ll be missing again tonight. Instead, I’ll be catching naps and doing as little as possible while dashing to and from the toilet. Fun times!