If I could ask for help with my husband based on when I need it most, it would be those first couple of hours every day. I would have someone come in to make his breakfast, help him shower and get dressed. They would help with his shoes and socks and be available if he needed additional support getting ready for his day. And while they were working with my husband, I would be having breakfast, reading the newspaper, writing in my journal, catching up with emails, taking a shower and getting myself ready for the day.

Unfortunately, that doesn’t work for us. My husband doesn’t want anyone else helping him with his more personal tasks and I can understand that. There are things that the state won’t allow his caregivers to do, like shaving him with a razor or clipping his nails, so I get to do all of those. The closest I get to taking a break with the morning schedule is on days when we do have a caregiver coming and he agrees to switch his shower for an upper body sponge bath when they arrive. It’s a compromise that we worked out so I get a bit of a break and he gets to maintain some of his privacy.

We both need to understand and agree on the role caregivers can and should be playing in our home. It is not easy for either of us to have a stranger coming in to care for him. It’s important that we are able to communicate about these things and that we are able to negotiate when we have a difference. I try to respect his need for independence and ask that he respect my personal limitations. There are always going to be times when I need more or he wants less, we just need to be open to working together and making this difficult component of our journey better for everyone.