When I started writing this blog almost six years ago, I wanted to share what I was facing as a PD CarePartner and perhaps be able to figure some of it out. What I am saying is that if you are reading this hoping to find answers for your loved one, you can stop now. However, if you are looking for what you might face on your journey loving someone with Parkinson’s Disease, read on and I hope you find my words helpful. Because the diagnosis your partner received will impact the relationship you share and will change your life forever.

My husband has a group of medical professionals who are all focused on keeping him healthy. I think that is great but wish that, just once, one of them would turn to me and say “how are you doing?” They ask for my perspective on him but never check in on me. They watch for anxiety and depression in my husband but no one is looking to see whether I am okay. Let’s face it, having the person I love taken away a little more every day is a classic situation for me to be anxious and/or depressed. It’s like his doctors see me as a therapeutic tool or aide, not a person with feelings of my own.

Yes, my husband is the one having to fight the symptoms on a constant basis yet I am the one who has to stand by and watch. I have to be ready to step in whenever I am needed. I am in a constant state of alert just in case something happens. Add to that the additional chores around the house that I find myself responsible for now. My life has been upended as much as his. So, I don’t feel guilty for resenting the changes this disease has brought to our lives and I don’t dismiss my pain and loss.  My story, all of our stories as Caring Partners matter too.