By target I actually mean the real reason you are angry or the problem that is causing the anger. I’ve said this before, it is okay to be angry at Parkinson’s for the challenges we face, it’s not okay to be angry at my husband for things he can’t do anything about. However there are things that happen within that dynamic that make me angry, things he does have control over. I need to be able to express those feelings or they will eat away at me.

My husband will not accept assistance with certain daily tasks unless it comes from me. I get it, he’s embarrassed or uncomfortable when asking for help. But…and this is a big one…that help is often exactly what I need. Our caregiver is trained and ready to help wherever it is needed. When all she gets to do for him is stand by, it becomes less a caregiver role and more of a babysitter role. As soon as she leaves at the end of her shift suddenly he needs the toilet or he needs a snack or he needs something else. I get angry at him when he won’t accept help that is here and waiting for him.

A quick example, it was less than 10 minutes after our caregiver left the other day when my husband called for help in the bathroom. I was in the kitchen starting dinner prep. The disease may be why he needs the help but he does have some control over the timing. I have to admit that I shouted a bit, I was angry and really needed to let it out. Plus I needed for him to understand that this was a big issue for me. I think I accomplished both of those things, we’ll see if it makes any difference.