I finally found a therapist and we start meeting this week. Just figuring this out has been a challenge and, if I were seriously depressed, I would have given up but that is another story. Instead, I am looking forward to the opportunity of working with someone and hope that she will be able to help me figure some things out. I think the first thing we will have to work on is exactly what it is I am looking for.

The therapist emailed me 9 documents to complete prior to meeting with her. A lot of it was basic information, address emergency contacts, insurance coverage, details she needed for the business side of things. There was a questionnaire, however, that was her first delve into the meat of the situation. She asked me why I wanted to see her, what I hoped to get out of therapy, where my strengths lie and what areas I need to develop. Then she asked what I like most about myself and I was totally stymied. Is there anything right now?

When I wanted my lawns cut, I hired a landscaper and when I needed help moving furniture, I called my son. In those cases, I knew exactly what was wrong and how to fix it, but with therapy, I am not sure I even know what I need. Perhaps that is why is has taken me so long to actually seek counseling. The questions she sent have already opened some doors, but am I sure I want to go through them? Where will this lead and will the answers I find give me the peace I need to move forward as a CarePartner? Maybe that is what I really need to ask for, I guess I will find out.