I woke up this morning and greeted my husband with a cheery “Welcome to Tuesday!” I went through a countdown of the month to determine it was Tuesday the fifth of August. Only once I had finished did my husband speak, “It’s actually Thursday”. We both had a good laugh and I then redid the morning recap and corrected it to Thursday the seventh. What a way to start my day!

That’s really just one way that his diagnosis of Parkinson’s has impacted both of us. I do the morning countdown to remind us because our days are no longer known by their names, it’s what we’re doing relative to his disease. Tuesday and Thursday are Boomerang days because that’s when and where he goes for movement classes. Monday and Wednesday are caregiver days and go by the names of whoever is coming to stay with him. Friday is either known as a support group day or named after his coach on zoom. Our lives seem to revolve around the interventions we have put in place to help us manage this disease.

As his symptoms progress, more adaptations to our lives come into play. It’s important to be mindful of the foods we eat and how they are prepared to make sure he can manage them. We modify our home, age-proofing it if you will. We don’t go out as much anymore and only to familiar locations that are easy to access. Old friends drop away when we can’t participate in the same activities anymore. Much of our time is spent doing what we must to get through the day and little on those things we actually want to do so hobbies for both of us tend to go by the wayside.

Getting back to my original premise, it is essential that I be kind not only to my husband but also to myself. I am living as a CarePartner without a roadmap on this journey uniquely based on his diagnosis and progression. Parkinson’s is changing my life in ways I never really expected so I accept, adapt, modify, endure and give myself a break when I feel angry or frustrated about what we are facing. I can only do so much and there will be moments when I feel it isn’t enough. That’s when I remember to be kind and forgiving to myself while making the best of the situation we have both been put in thanks to this disease.